HELLO PEOPLE.

okay the last time i updated was on hmmm...friday. okay it's been more than a week but nvm. try my best to remember what im up to (keep forgetting things...easily). gosh fir. so last weekend, stayed at home. this is what we (the poor couples) do when we're out of cash. no money= no go out. good right the rule? basically, thats our pathetic rule. (omg fir, you're the boring person ive ever met.)

PICNIC WITH CHICKENS.

on tuesday, went picnic with the girls. it was soooooo hot. i don't know why people can wear LONG cardigan. i feel like diving into the sea by looking at them sweating. hoh. i brought black pepper chickens (which mr loh, our careperson, won't stop talking about it everytime he sees me). mardy brought nasi lemak and seaweed chicken. nasi lemak also got fried chicken. haiyoh. felt like we picnic with the chickens too but its just that they're dead..and cooked. chicken overloaded.

so yeah of course the picnic was to celebrate hana's 19th birthday! hana step don't know only until we surprised her with the cake. she went on screaming like she never expected it. we went on -.- haha step don't know only. took alot of pictures bcos i was the....photographer of the day! *kening naek* i complained that ht always take few pictures so yeahhh ht let me have the honour to be the photographer. firi + camera = love.

we took billions of pictures. nolah we took 45 only. haha exag only fir.



























and we went home with our sweaty armpits. gross haha. we were so bloated with chickens until we can pang sai chicken eggs you know. went home with ht and mardy and they started to miss afro. haha heran. went to meet bf and feed him all the chickens so that he'll gain weight and his gf can play with his fats. okay gross couple.

MOST DISTURBING MOVIES

and on thurs, went to fatin house. watched 'the last house on the left' and 'funny games'. it was the top disturbing movies and we are big big fans of these types of movies. its actually an old movie and im sure you guys have heard about it.




story plot:

i give this movie, the last house on the left 5 stars. its damn good. not much talking. action all the way. it gives you that spine chilling sensation. its about a family who went on a vacation (typical plot). this girl decide to meet her friend. both of them bump into this stranger who is about their age. three of them was pot smoking at some random hotel.

the whole family which includes of the stranger went back to the hotel and caught these two girls. the father happens to be a criminal who is wanted by the authorities. they planned a way to shut these girls up. they brought these two girls to a forest. this scene was damn traumatizing.

the father who was out of this mind forced his son to rape the girl. wtf. what kind of father is that? he asked his son to be a man. i pity the son okay. the son reluctant and die die don't want to rape the girl. so, what do you think happen? the father rape the girl lah. dick sial the father. it was the worst rape scene i ever watched. you know i hate watching rape scenes. it gives me that chills. it was bad, ugly and horrible.

and the media interviewed the girl who acted out the rape scene. it took her 17 hours to make the perfect rape scene. imagine how much pressure and emotions she put just for the scene. the friend was stabbed by the man and she died slowly. very brutal. the girl who was raped managed to escape and swim in the lake but was shot halfway. damn right. so, i wont spoil the ending. please watch it. it's really really good. those who are still having their hols, this might helps. haha.

FUNNY GAMES

its about this 2 psychotic guys who go to every house around the vacation house and kill the family. it's like a siao story you know. i hate the movie. i give it 2 out of 5. one thing i find interesting about this movie is that the guys managed to mentally torture the family together with the audience(that is me lah).

it's something like playing a game. whoever win or loses, they will kill one of the family members. they even killed a small boy ah! i also become psycho after watching this movie. these guys managed to irritate the shit out of me like how he irritate the family. the movie totally connects with the audience. a unique way of making such movie but i hate how he controls the movie. like the bad guy wins, the good lose. try watching it if you want to feel irritated. haha.


FRIDAY, THE DEPRESSING DAY.

okay mind this post. this is going to be such a depressing post. even though my english sucks, i just want to express deep deep down from my heart. (if i can i want to post video ah almk. confirm you cry along with me ah.)

okay wtv k fir. firstly, i want to congratulate kaiying for posting to senoko, some japanese company which sounds really interesting, tarini for posting to kk hospital as a nutritionist and mardy posted to NUH who works with a dietitian and caters food.

okay so you all should probably know where im posted to. goshhh. so on last friday, me,hana and ht were happy bcos we have the same liaison officer. we all know confirm we kena microbio stuff bcos its under dr alex. i was nervous to know where im posted to until my sole shoe tore. yes very nervous. i havent even reach the classroom, i met ai wei on the way. she told me she got the same with me ; in house.

it took a while for the word to digest inside my house. after a sec, i went on like wtf? why the hell i got in house??? there was alot of ques in my head. was my results damn bad until they send me to in house? i remembered mdm ong said in house like no hope. something like that. bcos no pay and all. work for the school somemore.

so we three entered the classroom with such a depressed face. dr alex was like ehh why your face like that? he tried to console us but tk menjadi. i got qa/qc (quality assurance/quality check) testing and they got FHO(food hygiene officers) we still feel like shit. he said the companies pulled back at a very last min. so apparently no companies want us. i think they all don't trust tp students anymore bcos of their attitude. so, it affects us also. screw our seniors for making such a bad impression. screw the companies who had no faith in us. it affected us so badly okay!

dr alex said its a good thing bcos it will help our upcoming major project. the worst thing is that this job is all microbio stuff. it's more depth than fpqap. i struggled my fpqap, i failed my lab test and how the hell they think i can do the job? my aseptic techniques sucks like hell and yet they gave me a job which has something to do with 100x more aseptic techniques. i dont know what the hell im talking.

hana cuddled me once we stepped out of the room and stare into space. me and ht really cried after that! we spent the entire day stoning. the girls were trying to cheer us up. awww. hais.

i work my ass off last semester to get good results and also to get a good position for SIP. i ended up being kicked to in house - the least desirable place ever. i feel so rejected. omg i can't believe i went though my poly life feeling so rejected. last 7 mths, i got depressed that i didn't get into nutrition cluster. it took me weeks to feel better. and i got rejected twice by moe for not getting into the teaching internship and now..this. my god, what the hell is wrong with me?

i look forward to this final year to be out from school. i don't freaking care if they don't want to pay me or not. i just want an experience working outside school. how it feels like to work related what ive studied for 2 years but no!

i pity the 2 girls. they majored in nutrition but they got this kind of job. i dun understand this course. like what are you trying to prove man? that students of applied food science and nutrition are meant to be versatile? they can do this and that?

we all three are not big time slackers. im not trying to boast but seriously we work super hard for projects and we all know the people who are big time slacker got a very good job position. seriously i think sometimes life is just unfair.

i feel like my dreams are gone into waste. sometimes in life, we don't always get the things we want. we worked, prayed hard and it's just...not there. it's meant to be. i am going 20 years old and its such a shame i don't know what i want to be in the future. hais hopefully i could make it.

in house pon in house lah ehhh.

when i went to see bf, he saw me so torn and asked why. i burst out crying, not aware of anyone looking at me. i just don't care. didi hugged and i cried in his shoulders. he consoled me and...make milo for me! aww. he tried to make jokes and tried to make me laugh and all. im such a sucka for his jokes. ill even laugh at the little things he does. he managed to cheer me up. he even tweeted in front of me. he will make this squeaky voice, 'awww dun sad gf!'

nvm lah. tkde rezeki. thats wad everyone kept saying. like wad dr alex say, hope its a blessing in disguise.

confirm some of you will be like padan muka kau fir. haha.