bahaha. im backkk. finally the weekends are here. woot woot. this week had been suchh a hectic week even though there's no labs and tutorials. i can't imagine there's labs and tut. life is way too depriving i tell you.

i tot maths is sooo over for me after o levels. i was way too elated no more mathsss for me hurrayy. but hell no! there's maths in my course. i mean like every science course. it's not like e maths or basic maths. it's like a maths im telling you. i struggled passing my emaths o levels. wad makes they think i can do a maths. errrr. i always get blur during maths or pipc lectures. crook crook.

i saw loads n loads of dunmanites. randomly, i saw zi jing with his akido suit. he's all the way from rp promoting his akido in tp. caiyoh. so, i tot of joining mentoring. BAHAHA. laugh people laugh.

there's sooo many girls in my course. look left long hair look right eyeliners look behind fake eyelashes look front my girlfriends. bahaha. everybody say kwang kwanggg. so, yeah thats all mate. it's been a while i post an entry w/o pictures. thats wad make this blog dull like cricket. okay tutu.

it's been a while i meet up that boy. oh boy.

i know i'll get better in time. this song inspires me to live my life to the fullest. haha, ceh mcm paham.

i know this guy who is like my brother's age. he's just an acquaintance, not i really know this guy. i dun even want to know this guy. he's in his early 20s and sadly, he has a mind of a boy. what a shame, seriously. he has a gut to confront my bf and says he overdresses and ironically, he said my bf was being judgmental towards him. wtf right. way too ironic. he was the one being so over judgmental,sensitive and doesn't have a personality of his own. literally, he spent his life copying people's style and not being original. he wears this plastic suit wherever he go.

well, i was fumed when i read his msgs he sent to my bf. he threw werds that could really cut like a knife and at the same time, being so unlogic. there, my bf was being down to earth and he was ranting and cursing. since they're on good terms oredi due to some circumstances, wtv. i dun fall for that. that guy is a plastic for good. okay, i know my bf will really dislike me posting bout this. but yeah, i have the right to say anything. anw, from top to bottom he's a fake, what shud i care? he's a grown up and should think like a wise man, not playing a aku-tk-puas-hati-ngn-kau game which is sooo a matrep games. need i say, he was just jealous?

FOC was a blast. we won the cheer competition. the other school were basically doing cheerleading with background music. we're the only school who used our own voice and cheered. i really thot we're definitely gonna lose and engine gonna win bcos of their bass voice and spirit. but,heyyy AS won. powerrr.

" i smile , you smile , we give you a big AS smile "

haha. i was singing that to alicia all the way. okay, moving on business school rocked the socks. haha, they kept winning and winning trophies yet another trophies. kuning langsat btol. so yeah. at least we won something. woot woot.

my schedule is damn packed. lessons finished at 6. lucky my home is really really nearby. thursday is such a heavy day. lectures all the way from morning to evening. we even have to print lecture notes on our own. oh my, i miss the teachers who pampered us during our secondary school times. so please treasure ur secondary school teachers before u step in to the world of being MISS/MR INDEPENDENT.

i'm trying to get used to it though. but hell yeah, clothes and makeup are totally unrestricted!

*jumps around and do 20counts of jumping jack*

&& it's just so weird to see my ex-schoolmate which is of the same age is my senior..and my leader. *wonders* ahuh.

FOC is damn tiring. ive never been so tired like this. so i got lost when i stepped in the school. i spotted students wearing red shirt, assuming they are science peoplee. so i followed them. hoho. had a conversation with one of my leader..

" are you over nineteen? "
" no "
" why?"

i go blur.

"bcos im 17?"
"what 17? are you over-nitingg?
"ohhh! haha i tot u asked my age."

yes, thats how slenger i can get. so there's damn damn loads loads loads, i mean LOADS of cina. oh my. a senior from my school is in my class. lucky she very kecoh and outgoing. so i oso become ah lian ah. ahaha till i curse in minahlian language. chaliat siak. because we played this irritating game which we have to walk in one straight line with our legs tied with this fine, thin string which could chop off our legs.

so i bumped into kensho which left me laughing hysterically.

" what are hell are you doing here? since when you like baking? "
" fuck you *points middle finger* "

so rare to find japan guy do baking. ahaha. okay, thats bout it. loads of dunmanite in school. yey?


and where exactly the bf had gone to? hmmmm.

okay dee will definitely chide me if she reads the topic of the day. okay today tamp interchange was conquered with singapore-flaq people. the red and white people. loads and loads of girls wearing red. the boyfriend & his co. wore white. dee wore red. yeyyyy. i wore purple. i'm from the planet mars.

so, met dee. finally she took her sweets after weeks of being stuck with me and the sweets were seducing me so badly that they should be burn and pollute my whole body.

soooo, tmr is the dayyyyy. will be away for FOC. they had called me two times to ensure that i attend the camp and overnite there even! chill ah beb. so will be in my lame shorts and shoes like the zaman zaman secondary. hoho. so will finally be active and fit. been stuck with a weight which make me so low self-esteem. need to sweat to boost that weight up. (is that really true? i think that sounds so wrong.)

study this picture for a while. besides the pretty face, just scroll down to take a look at the underarms. godness. hairss!! black hairsss. i think the photographer tried so hard to conceal the hairy armpits using photoshop. tyra was like, " u didnt shavee??! "

" no, i don't shave..... " she was blushing because all of her competitors,judges and me were laughing at her.
yes , it looked like she learnt her lesson well.

i've been feeling so dead and hopeless these days. been working everyday this week and i was literally pissed off with the schedule. usually, i'm pissed if i'm off on most days but ironically, i'm pissed when my schedule's packed. supposingly this week, ive made many plans but work became my barrior!

i just woke up from my 13 hours of beauty sleep. still, i'm feeling damn fatique. i've been engaging with such an unhealthy lifestyle eversince o's ended. oh my, i need to school cos i will stop eating junks and maybe exercise! okay, thats kinda absurd. thats the last thing in the world firi will do. haha. you see, i wana gain weight.

so, worked on wed night. ita was being so understanding that she let me off early. so left work by 2am. my taxi driver was making a joke early in the morning that my card is rejected as there's no money in my account. i was like 0.0 , seriously??? and he was joking. babi btol. haha. make me pop out my eyes for no reason.

then, woke up at 7am the next morning. gosh, i felt like a zombie. so, met ahmad and fandi under his block. his father drove us there. rai got lost and she was late. i got so worried. the room was pierced with silence when she entered. right rai? hah.

it was delayed for the next 2 hours. i was relieved that they've lighten the case. so, the next session is on the 25th. sadly, ive started school. oh boy. den went to his crib and chilled. so we had this conversation that we never really had. i hope that after that conversation, he realised and totally repent. i can't help but to worry everyday about him. i 've so many reasons to get mad at him but i simply can't. i dun want people to make a wrong judgment about him. i stood for him all this while and he went against me. that make me thinks that i failed to be a good gf. i know this is all fated and can't turn back time. but ironically when this happens, it makes me closer to him. his father thanked me for still accepting him. i hope for the best for him. no matter what, it doesn't stop me from loving him. tell me, am i being such a good gf?

if only you know how much i want to be with you, but you seemed oblivious. the day is drawing near. let's just hope for the lightest verdict on thursday. you know i'll be there for you.

slept at 6am. i could no longer endure this work anymore. doing closing with only 1 people is like ripping the lungs out of your ribs. okay, i don't know if that sounds right. but however, it's brutal than that. so, i want to make it to the point and announced.

next saturday would be my last day of work.

0.0

awww, but to think it over, it's really a waste. i've learnt a lot and importantly the sales. besides, i've got school,madrasah,family and boyfriend to worry about. it was a fun experience working there. i remembered the time which my supervisor squeezed my schedule together with fandi so i could be with him due to only-God-knows-why. truly touching. i mean who would do that man. i'll definitely miss the gossiping moments about the lame plus kental-nk-mampos punye security.

besides, ive got a great offer to earn money. i just to need to earn money for my needs as the financial tension is growing and growing at home. pity my mum. my colleague is quitting today as he is starting school!! talking about school, god it gives me butterflies. looking at the bright side, my cousin's there. woohoo.

got 4 more days to work. bye bye wang. haha.

i don't understand people these days. you are given a proper life and yet, people make use of it, choose the wrong step and destroy it. once they destroy it, their future is narrower. this will happen generation after generation. don't they even think to that extent? i've seen people going down to court feeling like shit. it's truly traumatizing. if they had a choice, they would want to turn back time and repent. it's heart-piercing to see their faces especially if thats ur loved one. i know it myself because i've been in that place before.

if only i have the power to spread this to the innocent young people and open the eyes of their heart that they're wasting time doing all this things which brings no benefit to their lives but only a short term pleasure.

you are given a life. life is short. i've been through a lot and i've learnt from people who have face this. personally, i dun think people have good reasons to resort to these kinds of things**. even if they're deprived, they can resort to other better things. if they want to be 'cool' , they're so many other ways to be cool. 'cool' is just not the thing. it's a turn off to people.

so, be cool. in a good way.

**things associated with crime**

it's almost 1am. it took me hours to pick a new skin. gosh. lame fir. it looks like it can be done in 30 minutes. hehehe. dee was like why don't i design on my own? erm, it reminds me of the old days which i'll put aside my books and glued on the comp, designing web skin for hours.

okay enough of the skin. you'll see me changing the skin next month. danity kane's album is out!! i'm such a fan of them. haha weirddd i knoww. i watched every episodes of all season of making the band. hardcore fan. this current song is on their album. their version is sooooooo damn nice but it's short on imeem. boohoo. so uploaded at flash fetish.

okay deedee is gonna shop with her mum. so left me all alone to shop. hopefully fandi will accompany me. need a guy's opinion at times. see how good is he at decision making. winks* he once successfully persuade me buy a laptop bag which cost almost 100bucks though there was a lot of hesitation. god, he really did. okay, most importantly need to shop before school starts.

i had a really bad nightmare which left me traumatized for an hour. in fact, i couldn't even sleep. i felt like these makhluk halus always disturbs me. it's scary. so please stop tuning in to 89.7fm(ria) after 12 bcos 'that thing' is there too.

he was being the hero of the day. ok he'll kill me if he sees this. oopsies.