i've been feeling so dead and hopeless these days. been working everyday this week and i was literally pissed off with the schedule. usually, i'm pissed if i'm off on most days but ironically, i'm pissed when my schedule's packed. supposingly this week, ive made many plans but work became my barrior!

i just woke up from my 13 hours of beauty sleep. still, i'm feeling damn fatique. i've been engaging with such an unhealthy lifestyle eversince o's ended. oh my, i need to school cos i will stop eating junks and maybe exercise! okay, thats kinda absurd. thats the last thing in the world firi will do. haha. you see, i wana gain weight.

so, worked on wed night. ita was being so understanding that she let me off early. so left work by 2am. my taxi driver was making a joke early in the morning that my card is rejected as there's no money in my account. i was like 0.0 , seriously??? and he was joking. babi btol. haha. make me pop out my eyes for no reason.

then, woke up at 7am the next morning. gosh, i felt like a zombie. so, met ahmad and fandi under his block. his father drove us there. rai got lost and she was late. i got so worried. the room was pierced with silence when she entered. right rai? hah.

it was delayed for the next 2 hours. i was relieved that they've lighten the case. so, the next session is on the 25th. sadly, ive started school. oh boy. den went to his crib and chilled. so we had this conversation that we never really had. i hope that after that conversation, he realised and totally repent. i can't help but to worry everyday about him. i 've so many reasons to get mad at him but i simply can't. i dun want people to make a wrong judgment about him. i stood for him all this while and he went against me. that make me thinks that i failed to be a good gf. i know this is all fated and can't turn back time. but ironically when this happens, it makes me closer to him. his father thanked me for still accepting him. i hope for the best for him. no matter what, it doesn't stop me from loving him. tell me, am i being such a good gf?