it's hurts to see him crying on inside, yet laughing on the outside. he was such a good pretender but however, he was translucent to me. i could detect all the sadness and sorrows within him. he moved on with his life, leaving one of his dreams. i'm like ' sometimes in life, we dun always get what we want.' he live a life full of criticism, revolving people who hate him and love him at the same time. he break through all the barriers in his life and prove to people he is indeed, very strong.

sometimes i could not take much of people's criticism about him. our maturity may differ, we may have a rocky relantionship but that doesn't stop me from loving him. there was something extraordinary in him that i could not find in any other guys and it's so hard to explain what it is. he's a pure gold. i play an important role in his life. whatever it is, i am going to support him. i prayed every night for him to be a better and optimistic person.

don't start giving up, love. be patience just like what you always do. be strong and insyaAllah, god will grant your every wish. he inspired me. he is my soulja boy. he is my dear, beloving bf. i love him always.