hello blog. ok ok, i know. firi's not been updating her blog. yeyey. hah, but firstly i shall announce something...

firi officially got a job in wang's cafe. yes, wang's cafe. make toast and wotever. and it's HALAL! cmonnn. but dun eat the pau. got pork. the rest is all halal and....halal. the laksa is superb i tell u. i can go fat eating that everyday. btw it's at the new kallang leisure mall. please don't visit me there. (why wud u visit me there in the first place ryte?) HAH. heyyy ur the blogger! firii.blogspot.com! ill be like heyy you! i dunnoe you. so, i did not went fer interview or so on. thnx to fandi, he got my name in and jeng! im officially an employee there! jingle bells.

so i started werk last wk. my first day was a blur. goodness! i was alone and i didnt noe wot to do. i just wash dishes. yes WASH until my hands are OLD. everyone's like chinese and conversing in alien language. fandi's like doing the night shift and im doing the morning shift. im alone! YEY. it was crazy. loads of customers. my leg and body were aching sooo damn badly. they ordered food like it's gonna flood tmr.

my werk was like my second school. i need to memorise all the methods of making hot, cold, ice blended beverages. and cmon, it aint that easy. ive a whole file to memorise and a brain to crack.

example :
chinese kopi is kopi base with condensed milk and evaporated milk. kopi c is kopi base, sugar and evaporated milk. india kopi is the same as chinese kopi with additional sugar. i threw up drinking the india kopi. goodness! i can get diabetes! kopi siew tai is less sugar. (i learn chinese man!)and there's a lot and lot more. and i havent even excel in that area. i was literally shaking doing the kopi when the supervisor tested me. and it scalded my hand many times. wahhhhh. the customers are like tsktsk at me.

thats my life in wang cafe. and thank god an indonesian chinese girl just werk there. a lasalle student and she's rich(shud be!). at least, we can do girls tokin every mornin. i just...u noe need someone to tok to and be crazy with.

okay, last sat and sun helped out with fandi's cousin wedding. i was thinking twice bout going bcos...cmonn ive got exams on sunday morning. until his cousin called and forced to come. wahh. so came down fer the rewang. yeah gossip with his makciks and all. his family and all are rockin rio people.


dats mus and munir being emo.

and me, so engrossed with ppl singing...hindustan songs? and of course, bad hair day!

munir was giving the little chatterbox a kiss.

it was a tiring week. met fandi straight from wed to sun. heaven kepe? all his attention on me. now that our schedule is far apart and i wont even get the chance to see him. oh boy! sad smiley. sobs sobs. im missing him like a crazy girl. siao~





and this was taken 14 hours ago. 8am. i was enjoying the morning breeze so i decide to share with u ppl. and i quickly acted like i call someone when someone spotted me taking pics like crazy gerl. blublu.

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

just read the lyrics! oh-my-god ryte! really capturing. thanks to them i got addicted to this song. i cant believe people like munir and fandi love this kind of song. hmmmmmmmmm. i like this song bcos of the lyrics. like so wahhhhhhhh. the heart melts. ryte ryte?? ok i think dats it fer now. the food is calling me. and i think ive gained 5 kg you know.(ok no, dun think i can go beyond dat) i kept eating and eating. oh my, but my body's still the same.

ok i think i did too much of the tokin. so will update soon. toodles!

life's full of _____.

you know exactly wot i mean. i mean cmon, life is just full of ups and downs.

" i got this feeling you'll fail your o's "

it cuts me like a knife. those were words coming out from someone. and that someone is the reason i wanted to make difference in my life, who inspire me to have a bright future. it was my mom. those werds were coming out from my mother's mouth which literally means she had no hope on me anymore. she thought im not taking my exams seriously. i scoffed and pictures of the sacrifises i made were juggling in my head. those hurtful words left me speechless. im like let's just wait on the result day. however, im still worried for my english and of course all the other subjects. i keep having strange dreams.

i would not resort to any verbal violence, vulgarities or whatsoever. im not like those useless child out there who'll say ' oh fuck you! ' or ' get out of my life! ' to their parents. i think you shud get a life. dunchu think those words were little too harsh on someone who have brought you up all these years? for free? i grew up not being spoilt like my elder bro and young sis - "i want barbie! i want a guitar! i want a motor!" and they got wot they want. and obviously i got what i want lah..on conditions.

my mom splashed water on bed if i dun attend ugame class.(that was when i was in sec1) my mom said "ooh its ok, u can quit ur ugame once ur oredi sec 1 " to my sister.my mom gave 1hour lecture without being tired when i rebel.my mom slapped my lips until it bleeds when i spouted curses.(that was when i was in sec1 again)my mom scolded my sis when she cursed and my sis would slam the door just bcos my mom scolded her. i looked over to my mom and....wot do you think i should say to her..?

until now, ive zero percent resentment towards my mom. i respect her bcos she teached me self-discipline and not to rely on others too much all this while. i still have respect towards her. she will always be my inspiration although...she kinda have her bad days. she can get soo bengis but i believe she still have a softness in her heart. cmon everyone has their softness. she's still my mother and will always and always be my mother no matter what. i, as a daughter would stand on both feets on my own and fullfil her wants in any way i can.

so wot do you do after reading this entry? now go to ur mom and kiss her.

at times, i feel so unappreciated. i feel people dread my existence. all good deeds i did to people, i hope they realise and appreciate it. i tried to be a very good person. i really tried. i guess i end up hurting myself even more. i end up being fooled. it's too much already. i dun wish to take revenge on people who have hurt me a lot. i don't. they will get the retribution on their own and not by me. i just wish them the best and i hope all the good deeds i did to them were worth it afterall.


after watching the devil wears prada, i smiled to myself. they're right. everyone has a choice to make. it's about time for me to distance myself and move ahead with life.

am i bored orr wot?? ive to bear waiting for 1.5 solid hrs for pangako to start. and and sadly...todae's the final episode! the 160th episode. should i feel embarrassed tokin bout this oh-my-god-this-never-ending-boring-drama. but hu cares. it ends todae ya noe and i shud feel sad bout it!

fir is such a loser.


pangako sa'yo.

cmonn ive been watchin this drama since may. imagine from may until nov, ive been watching this everyday without missing one episode! (the night study is exception lah) even there's exam the next dae, i sacrifised the one hour just fer that drama. and my mom was getting so worried seriously. she thought i skipped night classes bcos of that sappy drama. hmmm, i did lah for some days =x ok, so i hope suria will premiere more filipino movies with lots and lots of hot guys. muahaha. so farewell pangako. ill miss you especially when a person like me cant take her eyes off jericho rosales! how cud i!!

my friend was like 'thank god it's finishing. so u dont need to tok bout ur pangako anymore'. you see, i made them my suffer by tokin my pangako 24/7. firstly it was hikmah, second; pangako sa'yo. and yes, i bought sensasi just to watch hikmah 3...although i already watched it last yr at youtube. ermm such a waste ryte? muahaa. im such a dramamamamaama fanatic!


chill ahhh firrr. den want to emo??yeah yeah. moving on, it's been nearly 1 week and ive yet find a job. this friday is our graduation tea party and the nite will be our prom nite! wooohoo! actually i was woohoo-ing about the tea party bcos SADLY, im not going for the prom nite! how sad and pathetic! almost the whole class is not going bcos we had some err.....s0-called underground prom nite. ehem.

so yeah, time seemed to pass soooo slowly. tick tock tick tock. and all my frends had their hair highlighted. i seriusly think my hair was their inspiration. haha no. i think it's more of the price- reasonable, ahuh. weekend was ohh-wee. o-m-g. luckily i had my bf to kill my boredom. if it's not fer him, i wud probably rot at home and die of boredom. haizzzz. our plan to spy on my sis with her bf at vivo failed. bcos by the time we reached there, my sis was at home. errrrrrrr.

=.=



ermm okaaay. that eyeballs-very eerie. okay okay.


' kakak, makan dah siapp!' - mum, 40+ (kinda ferget her age. erm confused lah)

omg, did i hear food? the chickens are calling me! i really gtg, the chickens just cant wait to be in my stomach. so long! toodles!

morning readers! okaayy, im in the sudden mood to blog. yey for you ppl. okay,currently it 1.09pm. in 30 minutes time, my sis will be going out fer her date. for your info, my sis is sooooooo in love with her guy(apin).i mean so crazy in love. i think it's her first time being serious in her relantionship(she wasnt for her previous relantionships,fyi) and im terrified she'll go to the extent of being so obsessive. becos... becos....i could see the signs now. damn gurl. i mean damn boy.



i mean cmonnn.i was never like this when im in sec 1.i'll sit 100 feets away from whoever-was-my-bf. HAH. nerdy firi. and there's my sis biting his psp which literally means i-love-you. ok stop being mean firi. however, they're sweet lah. take closer at that pic. zoom all you can! see that love blooms. i just hope that guy will take good care of my sis just like how fandi took good care of me until now. grinsss***

yeah love is what im tokin bout y'all! ok stop it firi. yest was the first in 348963530days i went out with ira. it was not planned at all. bcos she wanted to see my hair ONLY(so disheartened,see how mean she can get)HAHA BUT! she was being so kind to cancel her job interview and go to anban's hse with me. ohh boy. my heart melts. err ok.

so we head to anban's hse for his open hse. the food was yummy i tell you. how cud ppl like me resist chicken curry and sambal prawn??! never man. so we took **** prawns. and yes, i was so bloated with addition of carbonated drinks. i never like carbonated drinks. i know this is your first time reading 'hates-carbonated-drinks'. so weird.

so we watched scary movie 3. and of course, we laughed our arse off watching that stupidiest,bimboest,lamest movie in history. we left the place at about 5plus. and ira was being so excited bout doing her hair. maybe she got inspired after seeing my hair(i think). haha. ok,we headed to afgan and did her hair.



" kau mcm lion nak dye rambot "

..she was like a lion dying her hair..

and it turned out........jeng jeng jeng...







nah dun have her pic though bcos we had to go on out seperate ways. aww so sad. it didnt cross my mind of taking her pics bcos i was too flabbergasted. hmm not in a bad way lah. i mean she looks soo matured like a working woman. wowness oi! the streaks brought some lightness to her face. it was worth my 5bucks. =x

den headed home and fandi came over. the first word he said to me was 'minah'. becos of what? becos of my hair that entitled me to be a minah. dot dot. wahhh, i like. im so glad that both of us could fit in the m&m group.(mat and minahs) den,he had a lecture from dad. muaha. ok no, some sort of topics on working,moon and-barney(my cat) tu part aku heran. den headed to his makcik hse. ate there and seriously i was still bloated with the chicken curry and the sambal prawn. and furthermore anban forced me to eat his kuih and muruku. and more and more of his chocs. but that was yummy,seriously.

jadi buat malu i ate so damn little cos that reflects on my body shape. hahaha. but no,firi ate a lot! i met my long-lost ex-dmnite fwen and she was like ' it's good to see you but you should eat more you know'. haha, this body weight stubbornly wont go up you see. high metabolism lah. i shud eat more low-metabolism-pills. do such pills exist? one of the way to lower ur metabolism is not to exercise. cmonnn, when was the last time i ran or even exercise? last 2-3mths? since the o lvl was cumin up, i totally left the healthy world. i ate and ate and had few no. of sleeps,didnt even bother to do push up or wotsoever. HOHO.

so continue my story. den we headed to e busstop. and out of the sudden, a voice pierced through the silence.

" eh jupf! lamer kat busstop. bus breakdown pe? lyn kucing pe. HAHA! "

errrrrr,it was his frend whose voice reverberated the entire neighbourhood. we sat at the busstop for an hour plus. i couldnt help but to blush. you see, i dun mind if he whispers or wot but there he was from 2000m minus 1800m from us already calling fandi's name. funny crappy man.

okaayy, thats e end of my grandma story lah eh. hope to update soon IF there's an interesting events coming up. ive yet to work. imma such a lazybump u see. and obviously,i cant rely on my mom for my 24/7 allowance. dere's not even school and it's about time to give some break to my mom so i can ease her burden after a straight one year allowance. tell me, am i such a good daughter? HAHAHA. ok stop it fir.

' alamak da lmbt ! ' -firdiana,13.

my sis is late now after spending hours looking at the mirror. she lovesss mirror and not fergettin my makeup! funfair kepe?? hmpf!!

till den, toodles.

hola im back! finally back after months of break from this blogging world. i miss blogging so muchh. *kiss kiss computer screen* im officially gonna update my blog more often. i mean everyday! no empty promises. teehehehehehe. it's been such a long time since i laugh. erm. so people, keep that chatterbox werkin y'all!

o levels had officially ended for fnn students at 9 am this morning. and you know how we celebrate it? - by laughing at the dnt and poa students.

wakaka. for months and months, i werked my arse off for this exam and i was totally deprived of the entertaining world(seriusly i felt like a geek-maybe i am a geek). my life revolved around tedious books and notes every single day. i had not more than 4 hrs of sleep each day. god! that was my life.

and now that it's over, hmmm. should i say this? seriusly, this is embarassing. im gonna miss studying.omg, i didnt say that, did i? ya lah, so used studying whattt. looking at the bright side, im gonna have my ugame exams in few weeks time. woohoo. okay so far, the o levels was okaaaaay lahh. well lets just wait on the results day.(next year that is)

last two days i told my mum that i wanna have my OWN laptop(even though there's like two comps which is still in good condition.ok no,except for one which is lacking.). but cmon laptop! very accessible and non-bulky. ayo technology perr. and my mom promised to fulfill my wants IF i qualify for poly next year. hmmmmm.

" ok i want pink laptop. pink hp. pink camera(seriously there's this camera which is so cool! it looks like a mp3. i can trick ppl by detecting earpiece to the camera. and that someone will stupidly plug the earpiece to her/his ears and i will take his/her picture with earpiece plugged on his/her ears while listening to a camera! omg thats hilarious)....ok then after saying that 3 items, my mother gave me a look of utter disbelief as if i was a retard.

"omg, my daughter lost her mind..," she wished she could say that you know.

ive got million pics to update. and my comp wont let me post all the beautiful pics. haha. ok maybe some other time yarrr. toodles!