boohoo. it's a saturday morning. the weekend is finally here! boohoo. april fool. fool foool. ok now. once again, i just woke up from my beauty sleep. this time round, extra 5 hrs. 12+5= 17hrs. holy moly! this clearly shows that firi is tired and has been werking hard. haha,but nolah. just been slacking. and it's about time that i should slap my face and limit my sleeping time. oh boy. there goes my panda eyes.

yest came home at 8. gotta speech day. supposingly, ive to wake up at 10 and watched 300 with dad. (me and dad are getting so okaaay.oh boyyy) and maybe just hola bf and do my hw after that. but no! i ended up waking with the birds chirping. i wondered why was the birds chirping at nite? ooo,it was oredi morning. damn birdfriends.

apart from that, what really makes me down was yest. i mean i saw with my own naked eyes the distinctions ppl taking pics,all smiling and cheese-ing. almost all the exp students qualified fer Jc. they looked smart with the coats and tie. it really inspires me. i wished i cud be one of them man. i wish and i wish. see, im caught in between of two. jc or poly. what if i got e chance to qualify fer jc? omg. really am considering it. hah! (lom ambek 0levels agi ni firi!)

that lies on god's hand and how i struggle fer this yr. i aimed fer 5 distinctions (which is soo impossible) and be up on stage again! haha.

5 distinctions?

A1
A2
A1
A2
A1

laugh with me. i cant imagine getting my cert with those grades. ill be the happiest girl on earth. by then,ill be dreaming. but im really inspired lah! ryte dee,syaz && ira?? hehehe. those ppl feel the pain. those gfs oso wanna qualify fer jc.well lets just see nex yr. to where im heading to? i need better source of inspiration! so ppl inspire me! yeah,dats it man! lets pray to god and hope for the better. lets just keep this post hanged until nex year. the answer to this post will be soooo nex yr. so stay tune ppl. *clicked*

Ooooh, it's 12. It's about time! C'mon babes!

I wanna be your lake, for your bay
And any problems that you have
I wanna wash them away
I wanna be your sky
So blue and high
And everytime you think of me
I wanna blow your mind

I wanna be your air
So sweet and fair
So when you feel that you can't breathe
I'll be there

I wanna be your answer, all the time
When you see how I put your life before mine
With no question

When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry,boy
I'ma take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry,boy
I'ma take it from here

I wanna hold your hands
Review all your plans
I wanna make sure everyone of your dreams will stand
I wanna be your broadway show on review
So I can act out how God was when he made you
I wanna be your lighthouse when you get lost
I'll light a bright and shining path to help you across
And when you see that can't nobody hold me like you


It's because i had always loved you. Happy 3years , my love.

hola people. i know i know. lack of update, you see. and yeah, baby erin's bdae recently past. baby erin? damn girlfriend. it was an emo thursdae morning. just tears and tiramisu,which me and dee spent quarter of the time making that fattening tiramisu the day b4 man. hehe,i can bet i gained 4kg. but i didnt eat that night,so i lose the 4kg. so no weight difference!



so yeah damn girlfriend. happy 17th bday girlfriend. people are going seventeen. my sweet seventeen feels like eternity. it's like 87434 mths away. damn blog. well den,it means that there a lot of time for u ppl to collect money and start planning for my party and gifts. ahahaha. muker 5cen!

so yeah dats all. i cant believe ive a lot in mind to update while im in school. my blog doesnt like me here. oh boy. oh yeah,pls pls support me on fri. i wanna hear you scream out ur lungs when they call my name man! let dat lungs tear. yeah dats e spirit 5B!

and and i failed my 2.4 todae. shuttup lah.

people shud consider buying me treadmill as my advanced gift.

well,u hear me. goodbye now.

yesterday was such a hectic day. i just woke up from a snow-white sleep. i had a gooood 12hrs of sleep. damn blog, its good.

yesterday after skewl, we had a captain ball match against 4D. and hell, i dunnoe why must it be against 4D. they look, hmm i must say uncompetitive. i mean by the looks from their faces,it's seems easy for us to defeat. but NO. hell NO. damn,we lose 1 goal to them.they were fast and frog-legs. and me,being the slow poke at running was out of breath defending them. damn girl.

and they made it to the finals. gosh. it was that fast and easy. so yeah 5A made it too. im am proud of the sec 5's. muahaha. see ya in finals. muahaha.

but i wasnt satisfied. it was supposed to be a draw. they run with ball. sardine je. aku siku. ok da lah, da kalah buat hal kalah. mauahah.

&& at nite had parents meeting. i must say i was the semangat one. both my parents came down. mother wasnt satisfied with my humans that she tok to jain and fadilah. mother was like struggling for werds to speak. im like ryteee. mother expect me to pass humans. pass humans?

c'mon ppl laugh with me.

" ok, not only she lah. act the whole class is very weak. "

thnx cher. muaha. and my father was being such a flirtish. eeiyah. remember you have 20yrold son who is marrying in few yrs time,dad. which means you're gonna be a grandpa soon.

hehehe. so,i was too too tired that my brain cud only think of bed. the bed seduced me until i cudnt wake up. that results in 12hrs of sleep. thats e end of my story.

i smell disgusting. i need a bath noww. shall update soonn. toodles noww.

"asyhaduallahillahaillah..." mr Asnan & Datok Rahim mengucap.

uncertain about the spelling, but both of them were mengucap-ing. it hurts to see him breathing in and out with so much difficulty. it hurts to see him struggling to speak. it hurts to see him say that he's weary after breathing through the oxygen mask for long hours. it hurts seeing him sweating.it hurts to see him suffer. it hurts to see other patient's heartbeat so constant while his one is so you-know. it hurts to hear him mengucap desperately with my father. my father touched his forehead and peacefully berzikir to his ears. me and my sister could afford to shed tears.

i had been so selfish. i cant believe i did. my loving grandpa had been so sick for the past few weeks. i,being so selfish,reluctant to visit him because i tot it was his normal sickness. until yest,while i was revising,something distracted me.i somehow have this extra sense. ok no firi no. me and my father rushed to tantockseng hosp at 11pm when he was admitted to icu.

everyone was there.my mother had been so stress because of her loving father's condition.while waiting,my mind flashbacked to the times he always buy ice-cream and sweets for us.you know every children's like.he loves every of his grandchildren,like we do.

he used to take care of me and bro while my parents are out werkin. there,he and my grandma showered their love to us.we were so close during our childhood years.it all changed eversince we stepped on our teenage years and he seperated from my grandma.

all that could only remain as memories. it feels like the memories were fresh and so yesterday.so yesterday,so yesterdayy.i skipped school 2day because we went home really late and wasnt in e mood for school at all.

this morning we woke up,we claimed we had dreams of our grandpa.weird.i have to accept that if he has to go,he has to go den.ajal maut di tangan Tuhan.it had been rough for me.

oh boy.this is the emo-est entry i ever post.so yeah,i will never touch a cigarrete in my whole life. but worst lah because im a second-hand smoker.ive to bear with e consequences thennn.

so people,update me what went on during skewl 2day.im bored.2nite,there's a lot of dramas not to be missed. ok no,just two of them.but gerek u noe! so,ill be back and post more lively entries.

ok toodles now. u may notice the change of my layout which is more pathetic. so ive a chatterbox. you ppl can go and chatter now. bye now.

can't you actually believe im rotting right now? believe me, i am. i spend the evening reviving myspace which i didnt log in almost a month. and ppl were getting beautiful. a lot of changes yeah. only mine's rusty lah.

sad firi sad. few more hours to go and ill sleep like a snow white.


snow white & the seven dwarfs.


no, it should not be sleeping beauty.


the prince will come kiss her.



or izzit snow white?





oh crap, jus ferget bout fairy tales. i only remember cinderella's story by hard.





i don't know wots e point of blogging right now.





supposingly my plan 2dae is to finish up all my hw so that ill be hwless. but it's 6 now.




hmmm.





hmmmmm.






ok goodbye now.